Am I doing something wrong?

[stevenal_73]

I have notice that within certain posting that they end in my responces. Am I too agressive or do I have too much fir or pssion? What am I doing wrong? Is it my sense of humour or lack of? Please...give me some advice. Should I start debate about everything? Should I ask more qhestions? Am I asking too many questions? I have more questions? Am I not being very personal? Please, any responce is a good responce. I can handle harsh critical analysis. Am I taking things to seriously like Bill has suggested? Must I go through each posting and ask questions about why each person has said the things they did to get a better understanding? Please let me know...or am I driving myself crazy for nothing?

[observer58]

Greetings stevenal_73
Relax and go with the flow here. Bill is correct in that you are taking things to serious. Like I just said, relax and have fun. You will see that these people here are a riot (fun to be with) and highly intelligent. They ALL have a lot to share with you, so kick back and partake in the fun, frolic, adventures and wild conversations. Patients is a virtue here. Also remember that this is someone elses house and that we all are just visitors here.

"Am I driving myself crazy for nothing"?
I would say if you have to ask, then yes. So let me do you a favor here. Let me be the one to pull your license to "drive yourself crazy". Consider them revoked. I'm sure that Bill will jump in on this one and give me a hand also, as well as the rest of the members here.
Have fun and welcome aboard.

Take care and enjoy the visit.
Good luck,
John

[Foggy]

Hi, Steve. Let me add my 2-cents worth. This can be a fun, exciting, stimulating place. Just relax and be yourself, and keep in mind that most of what any of us say here is just talk. As time goes on, for example, you will see Mr. Ungaro and me exchange some strong, opposing sentiments... yet neither of us has any animus for the other. It is all for the sake of discussion and converstaion.

We do love a good, stimulating argument! Just as long as we maintain respect for each other.

Relax and enjoy yourself! You express yourself well, and have some very interesting ideas to impart.

[Phillip]

Mate,

Your not serious at all - your "out there"

Go CRAZY

If you can be relaxed then cool, but don't be subdued - you'll suffer the self loathing disease for it...

Your posts demand alot of time and thought. Don't take a lack of responses as a bad sign. I would like to respond to some of your questions, but I'd have to in that frame of mind - I like where your brain is going but puting thoughts into words and giving a good concept it's due diligence is somethhing I can't always do.

"Luv Ya work big guy"

[stevenal_73]

To Phillip...I was talking to a friend of mine this weekend because I have some problems with depression and personal rejection by my parent`s, who I have not talked to in four weeks. I deal with a lot of issues in making friends or rather turning people away. I am a very misunderstood person and I have been trying to change the essence of my personality from within but I can not. I talked to a friend who I share a lot of things in common with and something became clear to me. Human beings are looking for people they relate to...That`s why people form cliques. Well, this explains why people don`t let me in...I understand most things but people can not understand or relate to a perwsonal strength I have. They just have a hard time relating'. I hope this makes sense. To me, it does make sense. I never understood why at times I just can`t function when I hold back and then I get upset, then I function properly and all my thoughts just come out. I have this mental intensity that scares people. I am serious about this. I never knew that`s why people reject me. I was at work and I run around getting everything done like a mad man and I when peoplesay things, I have this uncanny ability to make it philosophical. Someone said to me....I just can`t understand you. Now it makes sense why I felt so rejected all my life and I am always trying to change for everyone else.And the only people I have as friends are people who like to analyze things like me. I try to become friends with other people and ask them questions about themselves but it just doesn`t work out.A.) I either freak them out or I am really bored talking to them. I have always had problems with social interaction with people and now I know why.....You put a little bit of light on the subject for me..Thanks!..."

[Phillip]

I am sure you'll be that way all your life and more.

You are the sum of your experiences and I'll grant your point on the difficulty with relating to people on issues that they can't comprehend, but not the way you tell it.

Unfortunately, you don't want to realise that all people are much the same as you and you are no different to them. Your current state of mind both shields you from their world and keeps them out. It is a coping tool and a resoursefull one, but a tool that keeps you from the real world. This alone suggests that you need to leave these thoughts behind until you can separate them from the stimuli that surrounds you. In that way you'll gain a better persective.

It is a matter of awareness.

Laugh and the world laughs with you, cry and you'll cry alone...

Buddy, think of things from a more positive persective. Your experiences are your strengths. Philosophy is fine, so long as you know and accept that all the great artists go mad in the end.

Don't divorse yourself from the real world.

[emmett_y]

If you have had any head injuries it would pay to discuss it with a neurophycologist. Some of the symtoms(traits?) you describe sound to me like the challenge I have...that being TBI, traumatic brain injury. Mine occured at the age of six in '49'. Talk about a lonely life...but I just learned to live with it...still do. Until two years ago when I discovered that I had TBI...I thought it was everyone else being arswholes...boy what a very rude awakening to learn it was me. I'm still a little in denial....but praise God, He was with me and I hope to continue to ride piggy back till He carries me home....

If you are on a serious quest for truth in your life that you seem to be...don't overlook that there is a thorn in your side, we all have one or more, and you need to find out just what it is and deal with it...only you and the Lord know...we, your brothers and sisters out here, can only love and encourge you. Thats what I would like to do now...encourage you to not only seek professional help...but more important is to seek the Kingdom of God and His guidence...